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The Rooms That Wouldn’t Keep Me
Misplaced and secluded —that’s what it felt like.A constant flicker,a film noirof me walking into the wrong room.Whispers too loud,eyes full of disdain.I don’t know what I ever didto deserve it.Maybe the wrong roomwas never meant to keep me.
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Paralyzed by Choices
The air is mighty fine here as I just let life pass me by I’ve given up trying, you see.. And choices make me freeze with hopes that someone else will pick up the task Hoping someone will do it for me, choose for me, and maybe lend out a hand once it’s tried and…
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A Harmonious Waltz
I sit in utter awe at the way my pain and joy dance together. An exciting tuneful melody full of drama and unexpected riffs presents itself as the soundtrack of my life. The scenes suddenly crack – transforming from colorfully joyous to a silent never ending silver screen movie. Every day, it all resets. It’s…
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My Valhalla
It’s been ages since the thought hasn’t been on my mind. The “what’s next?” whispers that keep you up at night, fiddling with the next plan to reach… somewhere. Days are a sequence of small battles of a soul that ponders – I can still hear the clinks and clangs in the war of my…
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Tick Tock
Like a ticking clock the ideas pour into my mind and the thoughts just keep on coming Tick-tock They resist any attempt to subdue them and while I’m kind they just won’t settle Tick-tock Not for quietness, no. That’s too quiet. Tick-tock A brilliant mind doesn’t stop thinking because that’s what it does best and…
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The Platform
They say the train’s coming but I’m not sure where it’s going. I hear it, it’s coming! I just don’t know if I’ll board. I remember checking the schedule a million times, but I keep forgetting where and when. That’s not my train, is it? Well, I guess I’ll stay put on this platform. I’ll…
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Healing
Take a step back where the view makes more sense and the people aren’t cunning. Not all of them, sure. But I’ve known a few. Giving into that comforting hum that vibrates into every part of your body, a sacred getaway unfolds. It feels like sweet velvet kisses on your melancholic glass heart. Putting the…
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Gold Plated
It’s a world full of pretentiousness. One where people preach goodness, unity, and truth – when all they do is spit poison right and left. It gets harder every day to connect. It gets harder every day to trust. It gets harder every day to show people who you truly are, without acting so grand…
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Things That Happened: Istanbul
It was a cold, rainy day in Istanbul. On the 3rd day of my visit, I decided to take a walk around the boutique hotel I was staying at. The area surrounding it was a bohemian land full of antique stores, little cafes and vintage clothing shops. Everything felt like a scene from a book…
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Are you okay?
It’s funny how it took a global pandemic to finally ask every person you come across if they’re okay. We now prolong our introductions and hellos; feeling somewhat ashamed of the remainder of the business conversation or request when we all feel the same way. The uncertainty that has us all anxious – making us…
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Hi Grandma
I hope you’re not missing us too much up there. I was with your sisters this weekend. We talked about a lot of things, and I couldn’t help but miss you being there; especially while we were having your mom’s famous molokhiyah for lunch. It’s been too long since we sat together and talked, you…
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Comfortably 26
Today is my 26th birthday. It’s also the first birthday since I’ve been back to my childhood home. The place where all the memories were good. I was on my way home last night, when I started hearing tiny little bumps on the rooftop of the car. I hopefully looked up, and the window was…
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Vulnerable, am I?
It’s that time again where it feels like everything’s collapsing. Nothing’s right and everyone knows it. I guess that’s the worst part: how obviously shaken my life is at this very moment. What does a person have to do to get some stability in life? That’s the only thing I crave. Don’t get me wrong,…
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An open letter to my future children
Dearest children, I swore that I would give you the world in its entirety, and I don’t only mean the physical one. You are the spark that warms me, and I am the light that guides you. I cook you a recipe I had to work on for many years. One that I came-up with to…
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I Did Everything Right
I don’t know how I got here. I don’t know how I ended up here. In this point in life that feels like a trailer park, somewhere in a tiny city where everyone stares. They all stare like it’s their business, don’t they? Blaming you for where you are, even though none of it was…
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